This morning I read a couple chapters in Esther and I bowed my head to pray and I started having a pity-party for myself. I was feeling like I’ll never measure up to Esther or any other biblical person and God gave me a revelation.
Things in the bible did not happen quickly. Every message, every letter, took days or weeks to deliver. Esther was married for years before she was able to help. She hadn’t even seen her husband (the king) in 30 days when she found out about the decree. God takes time to move and work. Whole generations of people were exiled (different times) for many years before being saved. We live in a world of instant communication, so it’s hard to imagine the actual time span it took just to communicate in the bible. I mean, we are reading about whole lifespans in just a few pages. The people of the bible had 1-5 small acts of obedience in their entire lifespan that changed history. Noah was already like 100 years old when he got his moment.
And that leads me to my next point: it’s not about Noah. It’s not about Esther or Peter or Paul or any of the people- it’s about God. So I don’t need to feel worthless. It’s just about obeying Him when He prompts me, searching for His heart and being faithful and loyal. There are plenty of faithful people who didn’t get into the bible and that’s okay because it’s not about us, it’s about Him and He’s already done so many amazing things in my life. For one, He brought be into a real relationship with Him a few years back and hasn’t left my side. Even before that He has always been with me, taken care of me, and shown me miracles. I feel more blessed than others, so I shouldn’t be having a pity party. God takes time and I’ve already had a lifetime’s share of blessings and He’s not even finished. I don’t need to be famous, or great, or a leader. I just need to obey and trust and follow Him. He will lead me down the best path.
P.S. Thank you God for this revelation…pity party over.
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